Mirror Mirror

I stand in front of the mirror And wipe the fog away My vision is still hazy From ridding myself this way My hair is all in tangles My eyes are filled with tears I wipe the warm tears away As if trying to rid myself of my fears I refuse to believe this all was done But it hurts me even more Even though I know what's in store It has taken over my mind It is eating away at my soul My throat burns with anger While my stomach growls even more I am still looking in the mirror Yet I don't know who I see All that I know Is this sad sight couldn't be me I grip the edge of the counter So tightly that my knuckles turn white I want to scream out in anger At this ugly sight It's your fault I hiss That I do this to myself If only you didn't look this way I would be in better health I cover the image in the mirror With the palm of my hand And notice a cut on my finger That I never knew I had I grab my hand in anger Or is it more like fright I'm just so shocked To see this sight I laugh and then I cry Then crumble to the floor Suddenly aware of my problem Like I never was before How did this happen to me? How did I become so alone? I thought that I was strong, I thought I was better than that My head throbs in anger My throat burns with pain My finger loses a drop of blood And Nothing is what I have gained

كلمة على طرف لساني

يا سيادة المرشح الفلاني

 ركز معايا بس ثواني

 وافهم صمتي قبل كلامي 

ان كنت سلفي او اخواني 

ولا مسيحي او علماني

 في كلمة على طرف لساني

بفكر طول الليل قلقاني

 ليه الكل واحد قدامي 

اختلافكم يمكن فالاسامي 

لكن ولا ميزة عجباني

 تفكركم بطريقه، شايفها و شيفاني

 عارفها و عرفاني

 سمعها من زمان و سمعاني

 في قصيدة ولا اغاني 

 و مالاخر.. 

كل كلامكم ولا يحلالي

 هو سؤال واحد على بالي

 ازاي يرجع حقنا تاني  

 مش بالاحلام ولا باماني

 كلام جميل تقوله علشاني

 المعجزات مش فزماني 

ولا في مولد الدراويش تلقاني 

انا مصر كلها عنواني

 نقول تاني

 يا سيادة المرشح الفلاني 

قبلك ظالم اتعمد ينساني

 ينسى طريقي و ينسى مكاني

 يقول خطابك مش لازماني

 ولا قراراته كانت هماني 

والفول..

 حبوب منع الفهم رمالي

 اتحكم فيا، حتى فمالي

 شكوى معيشتي كانت تعباني

  وازعق ليل و نهار اه ياني

 كان بيقول محدود الدخل  همومه هماني 

لحد مابعت هدومي و عراني

 لكن الشكوى لغير الله كانت زلاني

 مش هطاطي لمخلوق تاني

 يبقى بعدل الله تحكمنا و تكون حقاني 

و ان حسينا بظلمك انت التاني 

يبقى كلك حلال لساني

 ولا عظامك هتبقى لناري هي عيداني 

لازم تعرف ان المجني عليه 

 هيبقى الجاني

 وان مفهمتش اقصد ايه 

.... نقول تاني

Her New World

Sometimes I walk alone at night.
 I try to figure out why it's so hard for me to fight, 
Why I've always tried to suppress the thoughts in my head,
 the ones that wish me dead.
 It seems that all was cold and dark along that path to my heart.
 It seems that no one could see through the mask,
could see the hidden struggle and everything goes back to the start
 The beginning when all fell apart the time when all broke down,
 and the tears could not be heard,
but the pain lingered on, gasping for air as it sucked all joy from her heart.
 She could not even whisper her longing to be held,
 her longing to forget, her longing to be heard and loved.
 She could not even face her own body,
 her own face as she woke.
 She was alone
 She was alone because no one would ever feel what made her cry,
  and die and turn to ashes inside.
Because the silence was her only hope,  her mask of joy
 To understand - She lost herself that day.
 She lost all trust.
 It was too much for her small heart to take,
 too much for her small mind to forget.
 Can it ever go away?
She dreams of that day she begins to wake reborn into a new world.

صوتي و صوتك

بصو،هقولكوا حاجة اخيرة،صوتك امانا ودا شئ محسوم وحوار انبارح فالحيرة،على فكره فيها يعوم مهو دا اللي كان عايز الملعون،و نفذه باسلوب محكوم بس الذكي فيه الاذكى منه، وطريق الحق دايماً معلوم والدكتور اكدلي انبارح اني انتخبه وبكل قناعه دا انا شوفت الغضب في عيونه كظم غضبه بكل شجاعة لما يكون منافس ليه منصب فزمن كله خلاعه  ويعيبه انه كان اخوان و مناضل و مؤسس للخير جماعه بصو عشان مغلطش فحد  و اصلح غلط بوزر اشد انا مش هرشح رئيس له رئيس مش هرشح مرسي و رئيسه الاخوان يعني مش لكل الشعب مش هرشح شفيق و موسى ورئيسهم العسكر يبقا كل اللي بننا اتهد انا هدي صوتي لابو الفتوح هو الاصلح ليك وليا ولكل فرد 

GONE

  You're out of my life
 it hurt at first but now I'm alright
 I decided to not listen to your lies anymore
 it's over it's through I've closed my door
 so many times I've been played as a fool
 at first you were a good person but now you're just cruel
you said if I would wait one day we would be together
 but I'm moving on with my life I can't wait on you forever
hopefully one day soon you'll find it isn't nice to find
 the one you love being with someone else each night
 i must admit the times we spent together were great
 now you've grown into something, something I can only hate
 the other girl doesn't realize you've been playing her too
 but it's ok you belong together cuz she's just like you
 I'm glad I finally gave up on something that was never there
 you can't be with two people that's just not fair
 you should have told me the truth from the very star
t instead of playing your game and breaking my heart
 I hope you regret what you have done to me
 and try to get me back while begging on your knees but this time
 I'll be smart and leave you behind because when you say you want me I know you're lying you had so many chances but you took too long
 I feel better now knowing you're finally gone

The Pony Tail

Her hair was up in a ponytail Her favorite dress tied with a bow. Today was Daddy's Day at school, And she couldn't wait to go. But her mommy tried to tell her, That she probably should stay home. Why the kids might not understand, If she went to school alone. But she was not afraid; She knew just what to say. What to tell her classmates Of why he wasn't there today. But still her mother worried, For her to face this day alone. And that was why once again, She tried to keep her daughter home. But the little girl went to school, Eager to tell them all. About a dad she never sees A dad who never calls. There were daddies along the wall in back, For everyone to meet. Children squirming impatiently, Anxious in their seats. One by one the teacher called, A student from the class. To introduce their daddy, As seconds slowly passed. At last the teacher called her name, Every child turned to stare. Each of them was searching, For a man who wasn't there. "Where's her daddy at?" She heard a boy call out. "She probably doesn't have one," Another student dared to shout. And from somewhere near the back, She heard a daddy say, "Looks like another deadbeat dad, Too busy to waste his day." The words did not offend her, As she smiled up at her Mom. And looked back at her teacher, Who told her to go on. And with hands behind her back, Slowly she began to speak. And out from the mouth of a child, Came words incredibly unique. "My Daddy couldn't be here, Because he lives so far away." But I know he wishes he could be, Since this is such a special day. And though you cannot meet him, I wanted you to know. All about my daddy, And how much he loves me so. He loved to tell me stories He taught me to ride my bike. He surprised me with pink roses, And taught me to fly a kite. We used to share fudge sundaes, And ice cream in a cone. And though you cannot see him, I'm not standing here alone. "Cause my daddy's always with me, Even though we are apart I know because he told me, He'll forever be in my heart" With that, her little hand reached up, And lay across her chest. Feeling her own heartbeat, Beneath her favorite dress. And from somewhere in the crowd of dads, Her mother stood in tears. Proudly watching her daughter, Who was wise beyond her years. For she stood up for the love Of a man not in her life. Doing what was best for her, Doing what was right. And when she dropped her hand back down, Staring straight into the crowd. She finished with a voice so soft, But its message clear and loud. "I love my daddy very much, He's my shining star. And if he could, he'd be here." But sometimes when I close my eyes, "It's like he never went away." And then she closed her eyes, And saw him there that day. And to her mother's amazement, She witnessed with surprise. A room full of daddies and children, All starting to close their eyes. Who knows what they saw before them, Who knows what they felt inside. Perhaps for merely a second, They saw him at her side. "I know you're with me Daddy," To the silence she called out. And what happened next made believers, Of those once filled with doubt. Not one in that room could explain it, For each of their eyes had been closed. But there on the desk beside her, Was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.

Its All Fake

The smiles I fake, The scars I make, The tears I cry. It's really who I am. Would it kill you to look inside? Lonley is my best friend, Happiness is a waste of time. Loving will get you nowhere, Depression fills your mind. You could never keep a good thing, Now I can't recognize your face. And my feet are getting so tired, Tired from this constant chase. My heart is weak, My soul is dead. I should probably just give it up While I'm still ahead. I thought you could ease my pain, Not make it ten times worse. And I thought you could tell me I'm worth something, But instead my heart just burst. I'm trying but failing. I'm waiting, but you're done. It's useless, I'll stop caring. I'll say it. There, you won. I keep holding on tight, And this battle should be over. You never return what you receive. I call it heartless, you call it clever. I'll ask one more time, Can you please stop leading me on? Because if you actually knew What I was going through, You'd know I'm breaking And tired of pretending I'm strong.